Monday, 21 November 2016

The River Stairs

This one's a bit different from my usual stuff. A lot more consciously Gothic than I'd normally aim for, but it came from a dream/nightmare I had, which was just too vivid not to turn into a poem. I don't tend to use dreams for inspiration very often at all, but maybe it's something I should consider more.

As well as the dream I took some ideas and imagery from the Canadian folk tale of La Chasse-galerie and Malicorne's chilling song La Chasse Gallery about the old French legend which in turn inspired that; also Gordon Lightfoot's The Wreck Of The Edmund Fitzgerald, about the sinking of a Great Lakes bulker in 1975; a line from Act IV, Scene III of Shakespeare's Julius Caesar; and finally a passage from Chapter 4 of Jerome K. Jerome's Three Men On The Bummel about the mystery of the body clock, which is where I got the title.



THE RIVER STAIRS


Edmund thought he knew his place
He tripped through the darkness
Of a house as black as pitch
Through a hatchway to the river stairs.

A song, a shout on nocturnal airs?                            
He tiptoed on the greasy boards
Of his stage that status built
To investigate the narrow bank.

In misty shadows, swift and dank
He felt the river's fingers fly out
Of a flow wherein some ghostly watchman waited
'La Chasse-Galerie'
To take his tide of fortune at the flood.
                                                                         
A quickening then of the blood?
He heard his heartbeat as a drum
Of fear and loss of power
To turn aside the mighty course.

Faster than a galloping horse
He froze at the approach
Of a ship of souls without a captain
To turn the helm away.

Why never seen by day?
He knew the lines, the treacherous boards
Of his stage and his chosen part
To play no more.

SS Edmund Fitzgerald
Sweeping the drowning shore
He glimpsed the deadly wake
Of Gallery's galleon begin
To overwhelm his hope.

For him no further line nor rope?
He saw his dark house crumble out
Of time, of place, of reality
To rise again elsewhere.

From the muddy river stairs
He vanished from the sight and sound
Of future's dawn
To leave never a trace.

Does tragic Edmund voyage nightly in the race?
The waves will never give up their dead
Something still waits, and so beware
For along the bank, the river stares.


Thanks to: Jerome K. Jerome for
Three Men On The Bummel, Gordon Lightfoot for The Wreck Of The Edmund Fitzgerald, William Shakespeare for Julius Caesar, and Malicorne for La Chasse Gallery.


Working for You

During my Masters I had to take on a supermarket nightshift job for financial reasons. Fair enough, except that at the time of writing this post, I'm still there over three years down the line. That was where the title of this poem came from: questioning what my efforts were ultimately going towards. Happiness with a future companion? Time will tell.

The verse itself has a fairly straightforward premise: trying to move on with life while wrestling with memories. And meanwhile, settling gradually further and further into the place you've ended up in – for comfort's sake, probably. Seeking solace in drinks with friends, and music...perhaps that last bit is the reason for the unusually large number of songs I drew inspiration from here! Including one from Men At Work's Cargo album, deserving of special mention as the soundtrack to my Masters year.


The top photo here is of 'the orient of Oldfield', a fanciful reference to the easternmost point of Bath's Oldfield ward. (I've always been into the intricacies of administrative geography, but they don't often crop up in my poems.)




WORKING FOR YOU


Twisting my heel on the orient of Oldfield
To mark a new week
And the frost and the fog don't matter
I have bigger steps to take.

I'm here in the city
Where the songs all speak my name
Fears dispelled in melody
An easy drug to fake.

Heading home is all the outcome
I can find in days of doubt
Dependable roads can lead me there
Longing for a new or old path.

I can't begin what will not start
And so I try a promised potion
Mix it up in modern measures
The drink is dry and does not last.

Names and names and faces
Dance and spin in bubbles
To catch one I'd be happy
Except there's one I know.

It floats within me now and still
My heart defends itself
If it gets into my bloodstream
Then the hurt will surely show.

Forceful, endless longing
Exhaustion and regret
These are the wages of waiting
And loving yesterday.

But I will keep on working
Working for you
Whenever you are
Whoever you are

Still to come, or flown away.


Thanks to: Roger Taylor for I Cry For You (Love, Hope And Confusion), Dire Straits for Southbound Again, America for Only Game In Town, David Bowie for As The World Falls Down, Men At Work for No Sign Of Yesterday, and The Killers for Shot At The Night.

Monday, 14 November 2016

Bharat

By now I had started my Translation Masters, still at Bath. This was a slight return to themes of mine from a year or two earlier...fleeting obsessions, indecisiveness, and ultimate lack of any tangible outcome. All couched in dreamlike imagery, and all a bit vague perhaps; I think I was conscious of that when writing it.

And I'll leave the title as a mystery for myself. The reason for it is a past footnote that's no longer relevant.





BHARAT


A sea of chairs

Empty but for echoes
And now and then it's unawares
I'm caught among them.

Escape from doubt is welcome
The walls themselves take on a meaning
Frames for paintings hanging so seldom
Windows on other lives.

To look across and see you there

Something seems to open
With the movement of the air
And suddenly shuts itself away.

Peaceful but persistent aches

Oddly contented amidst the flow
Can they be all it takes
To keep a questioner happy?

These moments drag
And fly in equal measure
Disrupted metres of time lag
Tangled and tripping the best of us.

Weeks, days, and hours pass

Relentless countdown to a reckless action
Or the tragicomic farce
Of wordless longing.

My days are masked, my nights beset
With spectres of inspiration
Some are glimpsed and others met
To be swept away by circumstance.

Your many incarnations
Seem equally beautiful
But wealth of imagination
Hides poverty of courage.

So it's love in a fragrant mist
On the wide sea where faces now appear
As reality's fist
Shocks me to life again.

But still I'll demand to sit
And stare
And wait
And fade.


Thanks to: Laura Marling for Ghosts, Men At Work for Overkill, and KT Tunstall for Silent Sea.